I traded LA Life for the Costa Rica Jungle

I traded LA Life for the Costa Rica Jungle

A month shy of my 38th birthday, I find myself in a bit of a funk. Maybe it’s because I didn’t make my yearly pilgrimage to an exotic locale over the holidays, or maybe it’s because it’s January, and January feels like one long Monday. Nonetheless, I feel blah. I just don’t know exactly why. But I do know that whenever I get that feeling, I have to do something that scares me a little—something that forces me to the edge of my comfort zone.

So before I can talk myself out of it, I book a three-week solo adventure to Costa Rica—Santa Teresa to be exact. It’s the dusty little surf town where my love affair with the ocean began. The forgotten strip of earth I found myself returning to again and again after college with my best friend as we backpacked through Central America. That trip is planted firmly in my memory as the happiest and most free I’ve ever felt.

Of course I expect things will have changed, but nothing prepares me for what I witness when Costa Rican Sean Penn (aka my taxi driver) drops me off at my Airbnb. The town has exploded with chic restaurants, organic cafes, fresh juice bars and deeply tanned expats speaking a mélange of languages.

As luck, or destino would have it, my temporary home consists of three geometric domes surrounding an all-white open-air bar that looks like it’s been plucked straight out of the Greek islands. The owner, a Chilean woman named Marcela (with whom I surely shared a past life), welcomes me with her contagious laugh.

We become fast friends—despite my B-minus Spanish skills—and within a few days I have a position as a cocktail waitress at her “Bringing Sexy Back” Thursday night party (apparently JT isn’t the only one).

Each morning, I wake just before dawn, eat a giant papaya and pad barefoot down to the beach balancing my surfboard carefully on my head. The ocean, warm and inviting, immediately returns me to the previous October when I lead a group of women back to their hearts on one of my creative adventure retreats in the north of the country, Tamarindo. During our final sunset surf session, as the sea swelled beneath me and the sky exploded with color above me, I realized how much my entire being had been craving a slower pace, a deeper connection with the natural world and myself. Watching the sun sink below the horizon, I whispered a little intention to myself, I don’t know how and I don’t know when—but I’m going to live here someday.”


tide pools

I’ve long lived by the understanding that everyone, everything and every experience I create is a reflection of me in some way (which isn’t always the easiest way to roll) but this time, this trip, I’m pleased to effortlessly attract an eccentric mix of kind, hilarious, spiritual characters who generously extend me invitations to dinners, sunset jam sessions, waterfall jumps, camping trips and dance parties.

It reminds me that when we love ourselves enough to take leaps, even when they scare us, especially when they scare us, that good old net really does appear. And wow, does it appear.

As one week rolls into two, I literally feel myself opening—expanding with curiosity, bursting with inspiration, overflowing with faith in myself and in the good people of this planet.


And just when I least expect it, as I stand alone at the end of the path for a good 10 minutes trying to determine if I’m brave enough to paddle out into the huge windy surf alone, I hear a deep French accent, “You’re Marcela’s friend, right?” I whip my head around. His face covered in zinc, I almost don’t recognize the high-cheekboned guy with the piercing blue eyes my Chilean soul sister introduced me to when we passed him in the street a few days ago. “Oh yeah,” I say, suddenly remembering. “I’m Emily.”

“Manex,” he reminds me. “How does it look?” “Uhhh…” Big and windy and scary! “A little blown out,” I offer nervously. “I sink will be good, no?” with a slight motion that I should follow. Or at least that’s how I take it. The waves are nearly head high, but after about 20 minutes, the wind drops off, the water turns to glass and he’s right, it is good.

His English is about as good as my Spanish, but I manage to find out that he’s been living in Santa Teresa for nine years, is interested in expanding his consciousness and does just about everything from making sushi to leading adventure tours to property development.

Before I catch my last wave he invites me to dinner. And just after seven o’clock, I hear the roar of his motorcycle as he pulls into the gravel out front. I peek through the palm fronds to see Manex—French on the top (white, gauzy linen collared shirt), Costa Rican on the bottom (shorts and bare feet).

Costa surf trip

From that moment on, Manex and I spend nearly every moment together, and come time to leave, he invites me to extend my ticket and join him and his buddies on a surfing adventure all around Costa Rica. When he finally drops me at the airport two weeks later, he says,”Darlink, I know from when I work in zee restaurant, zee man know exactly what he want. He say, I want zee chocolate cake. Zee wo-man. Zee wo-man, she change her mind. She say I want zee chocolate cake. No, no … actually I want zee ice cream. Ahhh … I sink I want zee pineapple sing. So go home, sink about it, you want, you come back and we make a bebe.”

I delight in suppressing my giggles and brush it off as French romance at its finest.

But apparently intentions are no joke. The minute they’re declared in earnest, the universal puppeteers begin manipulating the energetic strings of reality to align you with that intention. Back in Venice Beach, sitting in my beautiful bungalow on my beautiful post-modern white couch surrounded by my once important things, all I can think of is the freedom I felt flying through dusty streets on my scooter, cruising over the crest of wave after glassy wave and the peace in my heart I felt in Costa Rica.

manex and i

I sleep on it. And then I sleep on it again. I sleep on it for a good week. Then I pick up the phone, dial a certain Frenchman and do the one thing that hasn’t let me down since—something that scares me a little.

—Written with love from my new home in Costa Rica with a little bebe growing inside me.

Originally published by The Zoe Report.  


Rite of Passage

Rite of Passage

These days leading up to THE BIGGEST day of my life… I want to savor them, chill in a hammock with a coconut in hand, and enjoy these last few moments of calm. But right now baby girl is breech. That means she’s sitting upright, not in the head down, ready for arrival position.

I found out a couple weeks ago and have since been experiencing a roller coaster of emotions trying to make peace with the reality they may need to cut me open an airlift her out. So different than my dreams of initiating myself into motherhood the way our bodies were designed to do it. Trying to find the balance between doing just about every baby spinning exercise under the sun: walking, yoga, meditating, handstands, dancing, and crawling to encourage her to turn and trying be ok just laying around and eating pancakes because a midwife told me my stomach was too muscular, and I needed to soften. Or do I just need to soften my thoughts?

Of course I consulted my mystics who said my resistance to the c-section the very thing calling it in. I guess there’s no way around: what you fear will appear.

So trying to think of the positives of a c-section like not peeing in my pants when I sneeze or ripping myself in two. Although I’d take both of those happily if she decides to turn.

Today I’ll breathe in this salty air and remind myself to trust that my daughter is coming with her own unique wisdom and this is the beginning of learning to kneel to it.

Maybe my rite of passage is realizing it’s not just about me and what I want anymore?


GIVING: Are You Doing It Wrong?

As women, we are wired to nurture. This, combined with the (not so subtle) messages we receive from society: Do good, heal the planet, be of service… lead us to believe: if I can just take care of everyone else, I will be happy and fulfilled, and everyone will love me.

Sounds like a good plan right?

Well, not exactly. Turns out there’s some fine print. Turns out there are two very different ways to give:

  1. One rejuvenates us and sends powerful healing ripples across the planet.
  2. The other is totally disempowering and wreaks havoc on our happiness, health and ability to manifest what we what.

Unfortunately, the #2 is what most of are taught from a very young age (YIKES)

 In this week’s video I share a simple (yet radical) shift in perspective that allowed to me transform a life of exhaustion and resentment to a love and abundance…  miraculously receiving waaaaaaay more than I give.

*If you feel inspired by this video, please share with your communities! Not only does it help me tremendously, but you never know who could benefit from hearing this message today. Women uplifting women is the beginning of a new paradigm on this planet…. and we are revolutionaries!

Who knew judging others was blocking me from everything I wanted?! Learn to shift this INSTANTLY.

It may seem like women judging women just comes along with the territory of being a woman– like getting cat called or cellulite. But I’ve found that judgements are a lot more complex than they appear at face value.

Who knew judgements kill creativity, consciousness and the ability to manifest what we want?! YIKES! (I sure didn’t).

Learning WHERE judgements come from and HOW to neutralize them has essential to my ability to create a happy, prosperous life full of passion, love and freedom. (Yep, it’s that powerful!)

*As always, if you find this video insightful, please consider liking it or sharing it with your friends. You never know who might be able to benefit from receiving this message today! And women lifting up other women is the beginning of a new paradigm on the planet. XO!

**Be sure your YouTube setting (little screw icon in right corner) is on HD, otherwise I’ll be blurry** 

Regain Your Goddess Status & Become Irresistible to him again!

Has it ever been your experience… where a guy is totally into you, then like flipping a switch, you’re suddenly no longer the magical goddess he can’t get enough of?

If you’ve over the age of.. say 12, chances are this has happened to you.

I can’t even count the number of times I’ve had guys who literally would’ve swam through a river of sewage to get me. Wooed me with flowers, trips, gifts, and love notes. And then once I finally decide he’s a good guy, and commit to the relationship fully… something begins to shift. I witnessed time and again my status began to fall. Below his work, below the buddies, below the surf trips, and football games…

Often times this all too common situation gets attributed to biology. Males are wired to spread their seed, so naturally once they conquer, then need to go conquer again. Right?


I’ve learned, there are actually some specific (albeit) unconscious spiritual constructs at play.  As I grew my awareness and made a few shifts myself, I found I no longer ended up in the closet behind a set of dusty golf clubs!

Watch my latest video to learn the 3 actions you can take to regain your goddess status and become irresistible to him again (and it doesn’t involve a wax, spray tan, or playing hard to get!)